Unfortunately we all struggle with our own mental blocks. Sometimes it can be just the constant voice that says “You can’t do it, you will fail.” Or hearing the voice of the people in your life and past who have always pointed out your flaws, so you start to believe that it’s just a part of you. For some it could be the false convincing of yourself that everything is fine, I did this. I was 233 pounds but my health was fine for the most part. I read article after article that said big girls were awesome and sexy, and that even if you’re bigger that doesn’t mean you are not healthy. Well, hate to say it, but that’s wrong. Your body may not be showing signs right now that you are unhealthy, but the extra fat on your body is slowly suffocating your organs. So, for now, you may seem healthy, but down the road it will not be that way.
For others, it is actual mental health problems. I have family that struggles with depression and bipolar, which can make you tired and can cause weight gain because you have no motivation. I will go into that later in a different post.
For me, it is anxiety. Anxiety is something that a lot of people deal with, and usually its something different for each person. For me it was always worse case scenario. Did not matter what it was. This made me sit and dig myself into a deep hole of worry and stress, which led to weight gain because before I knew it the whole day was gone. I always felt like I needed everyone’s approval and to have that reassurance. Even when I got it though, it didn’t really help. I worried about the gym, because I worried about what others were going to think of me while there. I worried that my family was not going to be proud of me if I was not successful. I was worried that my husband would be disappointed if I was not successful. Finally, I had a talk with my doctor and with my husband. My husband reassured me that he would love me no matter what I looked like or what changes I made. He reassured me that I did not need other’s approval, I needed my own.
That really struck me hard. He was right, on all levels. I needed to do what was best for me, and I needed to believe in myself. I pushed myself to shut that negative voice in my head off, and what I found was that when I exercised it put my whole day into perspective. I felt confident and indomitable. After a while, I was able to stop taking my anxiety medications, because I wasn’t feeling that constant worry and constant stress anymore. For the first time in 10 years, I love who I am. I love what I see in the mirror. And I do not give two poops what anyone else thinks of me. I have been able to cut negativity out of my life, cut out the toxic people, and the toxic behaviors. I may have only lost 35 pounds but I feel like I am a ton lighter!